Life is full of balancing acts, we’ve talked about this before. How to be intimate, fully present in a relationship, and be true to yourself? What does it mean to have freedom and to execute that?
Recently, I have fallen in love. It is a rollercoaster of emotions. Mostly good ones but I’ve also been scared to lose myself and felt like there was somehow a block to being fully open and present. This has to do with some of my own past traumas but also I think that there is a conditioning happening in society of having to go slow, not jumping into love too fast and soon because you have to protect yourself. I am trying to let go of this conditioning because, seriously, you only live once. And I am beginning to understand more and more that I want to live my life to the fullest, feel all the sensations, being present.
I am writing this from my boyfriend’s apartment, feeling like I have started a new life, once again. Everything can be a new beginning if you want it to be.
So, I have also decided I won’t be writing here as much anymore. My life is going at full speed and there are many things that are pulling my attention and this is being pushed more and more to the background. 13 is the right number for something else.
On the 19th of January, my ep will be released and I’ll be performing at mur mur in Amsterdam, please come by if you feel like <3
Much love to all of you and I am sure we will meet here again.
Flora